Peace spot

Everyone wants to feel safe or have a place of refuge. It may be in a church, it could be in a library, or it could be in the comfort of someone else's home. But my place of refuge is my bathroom. Yes, you read that right. It may seem strange. Why not just go … Continue reading Peace spot

Today was a good day

Merry Christmas! I made it through the day. {smile} No sadness, no crying, no thinking negatively... today was a good day. I must admit. My Christmas Eve sucked. The doctor started me on a higher dosage of medication and it had my head hurting ALL DAY! I literally felt the effects of the meds oozing … Continue reading Today was a good day

‘Tis the season to be jolly

Sadness is trying to creep up on me. Why? I don't know. Maybe it is this seasonal depression thing. Or it could be all in my mind. Two of my three children are away for the holidays. I feel kinda lost without them. They have been in my life for 22 and 18 years. Although … Continue reading ‘Tis the season to be jolly

Depression survivor

Mental illness. Such a dirty word but so many people have it. The list of mental conditions include depression, panic disorders, OCD, eating disorders, bi-polar disorders... the list goes on. An average person would imagine a mentally ill person in a straight jacket, screaming to the top of their lungs, spewing vulgar language - not … Continue reading Depression survivor

Just one word

It amazes me sometimes how one word can open the flood gates of emotions. One simple thought can take you back to a place that you try so hard to forget. Just one word is all it takes. There is a piece of my life that I would like to forget. A time where all … Continue reading Just one word

I will love you always…

I am an only child. Growing up was lonely. Very lonely. Yes, I had just a handful of cousins around my age, but they had no idea just how lonely I was.  I had a two parent household, but only felt love from one. That was hard, very hard.  And sometimes, it still hurts.  So … Continue reading I will love you always…

Pretty ugly

I am not feeling good today. I could blame this dreary weather. But no, it's not that. In fact, I like the rain. The soothing sound of rain actually makes me feel good. It's probably the Pisces in me.   Maybe I should say I am not feeling good about myself today.  Yes, that's better.  It's … Continue reading Pretty ugly

A stressful, but good day.

Today was the day I informed my family and friends about my upcoming book Inside Of Me.  Such an exciting moment... filled with anxiety.   Oh trust me, I am so excited about this part of my chapter (life).  I never imagined me being an AUTHOR.  I guess it's just the nagging thoughts in the back … Continue reading A stressful, but good day.

I did it!!

Wow!  My very first blog. Not very sure where to begin... so I'll just start.   The focus of my blog is to tell my story about depression.  I have suffered from depression for as long as I can remember.  Unfortunately, I still suffer.  Presently, I have a wonderful, supportive husband who will hold my hand … Continue reading I did it!!