Today, I feel like crying.

I’m not having a good day. Physically… I’m ok. Mentally… I’m drained. Why? I don’t know. I just want to go home.

It is such a beautiful day outside. Warmer than usual weather is upon us. A nice breeze is even blowing. It actually felt good to walk downtown during my lunch break. However, this morning I did not want to get out of bed. I didn’t want to see what a great day this was going to turn out to be. I didn’t care. I didn’t want to trade my pillow and comforter for a nice, sunny Thursday.

I can’t explain my thoughts and feelings. Today, I don’t have the words to really express it. 😓 I just want to go to the house and cry.

The reason for my writing is to talk about my depression. I already knew that I will have bad days like today. And I’ll have plenty more to come. So there is no need in sugarcoating anything. It is what it is. I’m just having a bad day.

When I write my blogs, my hope is to be of good encouragement to those who need it. That’s my goal. My mother-in-love told me just last week how much she appreciates my encouraging words to her. I, in turned, asked the question, “Why is it so easy for me to encourage others and I can’t encourage myself?” I didn’t have an answer.

My awesome followers… I can’t and I won’t apologize for how I feel today. I only hope and pray my day doesn’t bring you down. But I’ll be optimistic and pray for a better day tomorrow.

Until next time … be blessed!