I demand my peace

The word PEACE is so underrated. Sure we talk about having peace, but how much do we really utilize it? And at what cost?

I thought my life would be peaceful after my divorce in 2008. On the contrary, there was no such thing. In fact, it was much worse than before. Because there were children involved, there had to be some communication between us. I won’t go into details because talking about that gives the source of my pain too much power. {Those days are over!} What I will say is that I blame myself for allowing it all of those years. It definitely was not worth it.

I’ve asked God quite a few times, why give me the gift of discernment and compassion? If I know [ahead of time] someone is going to do something wrong to me, why do I still have compassion for that person? Seems like I am asking for the disappointments. But as with all things, experience is the best teacher. You learn through those experiences who is for you and who is against you – who to deal with and who not to deal with. I’m a Pisces. And if you don’t know about this sign, let me tell you. We can avoid you like the bubonic plague – without batting our eyelashes – if you do us wrong. Or maybe that’s just me. 😏

And as I have gotten older, my tolerance for foolishness has gotten much worse. But for me, that’s a good thing. At this point in my life, I demand my peace. I expect it. I need it. If I don’t get a cozy, good vibe feeling no matter what is going on, something will have to change. And that is where the best part of discernment comes in. For the most part, I can grasp what type of person I am dealing with. My spirit uses auditory and visual senses. And just because I don’t say anything does not mean I don’t know. I am quite observant. Most of the time, I won’t say anything just to see just how far things will go. That’s petty, I know. 😄

My husband bought me a diffuser for my desk at work. The aroma of lavender fills the air with such a beautiful calming effect. It feels like PEACE in here. However, I am beginning to think that maybe this wasn’t a good idea. 🥴 I am too calm. I am sleepy. I have no thoughts other than to write to you guys. (LOL) And I am still looking at this one patient’s name for the last 45 minutes.

Anyway, I hope that you all have a PEACEFUL day. I sure will!

Until next time … be blessed!