I need a little solitude

I’m tired. I can’t quite put my hands on why, I just know I’m tired. Mentally, I am drowning in my own thoughts. It’s not even a specific thing. It’s several things swirling around together. Physically, I feel like I am not getting enough sleep. I have no problems with insomnia. I just can’t seem to function with 6 hours of sleep anymore.

I’ve actually had thoughts of somehow ‘getting fired’ just so I could go home (cussing out a patient came to mind). lol But as rude as some of them can be, I digress. Yes … it’s that bad. My tolerance level sucks as of late. I’m not ‘cheerful’ and I don’t feel like smiling. But day after day, I manage to show up.

When I get like this, I miss writing. I miss being able to sit down and write my thoughts when they come to my mind. Now those thoughts come while I’m working… while I’m sleepy. How nice it would be to win the lottery? If only Alabama had a lottery system in place, but you can’t win if you can’t play (deep sigh). Maybe I need to make that 2 hour trip to Georgia every other weekend? But I need money to play, so that’s where the job comes in. Can’t miss work, right? Geez. Such a vicious cycle of reality.

I think I’m in need of a quick getaway from ‘everything’. A little solitude from the every day norm, like a nice beach setting or a long ride through the mountains. I was hoping for an anniversary weekend getaway with my husband but because of unforeseen circumstances, we can’t. So we’ll make do and spend time at home. Maybe I can spend some time in my PEACE SPOT – light a candle and turn on some ‘ocean waves’ music. I can reminisce about our honeymoon on the beach. Or I can find a spot on the couch and eat ice cream – my new personal indulgence. I don’t eat a lot of sweets, but my Lord… there is something about this ice cream. 🥴😛

Well, I’m going to try and go to bed early. I have one of those headaches that a Goody’s powder can’t help. Let’s see if I can surpass 6 hours of sleep tonight.

Until next time … be blessed.

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