I can feel my myself slipping. Slipping right into that dark space I hate residing in. I don’t want to go there, not today. Today is a day of Thanksgiving, not sulking. 😖 《sigh》
I spent most of the morning and afternoon cooking yesterday. My intention was to reserve this day for relaxing and enjoying my time with my husband, son and Rico. But I started reminiscing about the Thanksgiving holidays I spent with my daughter and son. The three of us would spend the day eating, watching movies, playing card games, playing the Wii and eating some more. For 12 years, it was just us. Now, they are grown and doing their own thing. It hurts sometimes that I don’t get to see them during the holidays. Obviously, it bothers me more than I care to talk about with anyone.
Somehow, I have to refocus my distracted mind on what’s important. Please don’t get me wrong … I am thankful. I am blessed. I am happy my entire family is alive and healthy. I am beyond appreciative that I have this opportunity to have such a beauty family. I am. But this ole mind of mine does the absolute most sometimes but trailing off the straight path. It likes to veer off to the left. But today, I will control the path I go down.
With that being said, I think I will go in my PEACE SPOT and have a little talk with The Almighty! I will thank Him over and over for this day – a day I have never seen and a day I will never see again. I will thank Him for the NEW memories I am making with my husband. Today WILL be a good Thanksgiving Day!
Please be safe and enjoy this Thanksgiving holiday. Until next time … be blessed!