I am miserable!

It’s been a long time, friends. I haven’t been busy. I haven’t been working on things. I haven’t been occupied. In fact, it has been the complete opposite. I have had so much free time on my hands that quite frankly, I don’t know what to do (although I enjoyed being retired).

People have been giving advice like write another book, but I don’t know if that is really what I want to do right now. I am in a land of indecisiveness and complacency. I spoke with my husband last night and while I was talking, I wrote down everything I had on my mind – everything I was thinking about all at the same time. The little 5×7 page in my notebook was filled front and back. That is not good. Especially since I can’t get a control of my thoughts at times, my mind stays in overdrive mode.

I want to do more. I even thought about going back to get my bachelors since I have my associates degree. But I already know, I won’t be focused. I can’t finish reading a magazine article much less a book for school. However, I need to utilize my time constructively and with purpose.

All I can do is take one day at a time. I need to focus on maintaining this chronic pain and make some dietary changes. Because menopausal symptoms has reared its ugly head, dealing with hot flashes have taken over the last two weeks; I am miserable. I really could use some good, restful, uninterrupted sleep – but this electrical surge, though. 🥵 I am also equating my weight increase with menopause. (And I am sticking to that!) So I do definitely need to change some things to make me more comfortable. Self love, right?

Anyway, enough about my heat stressed, increased weight, unproductive days. I hope all is well with each of you.

Until next time … be blessed.