2 years later …

So far, so good. I finally made it to my surgical oncology office. No, I don't have cancer, but this physican was assigned to my case 2 years ago ... just in case. It's been over a year since I've been checked (due to the pandemic). It's past time to get over my fear and … Continue reading 2 years later …

My blackness will always be a target

Do you know what it's like to worry about your children? Correction - do you know what it's like to worry about 'black' children? I know some will ponder the question "Why does it have to be 'black' children? Why can't it be just children in general?" I'm glad you asked. I am not going … Continue reading My blackness will always be a target

Now is YOUR time

Ever since this terrible thing with COVID-19 started, it has really put things into perspective. Mainly ... life in general. This pandemic is by far the worst thing that has happened to me personally - or I should say this last century (besides the wars) - during my lifetime. 100 years ago, there was another … Continue reading Now is YOUR time

Can you care too much?

Have you ever been told that you care too much? Is it even possible? I mean to truly 'care' beyond expectations? Well, according to my counselor - the answer is yes. The way I am set up (by God), my compassion and empathy can lead me into my own downward spiral. In all honesty, if … Continue reading Can you care too much?

Wet eyes

Two weeks ago, you may or may not have seen, I was in a very bad place. Today, I believe it is much worse. I am getting all of the support I can possibly get - counseling, medication, love - but to no avail. Depression is weighing heavily with no ending in sight. My motivation … Continue reading Wet eyes

My heart hurts

My heart hurts. It literally feels like all four of my puppy's feet are standing on my chest. And Rico is a solid 20 lbs. I am thankful, however, that the pain is not from COVID. Have you every heard of a person having a broken heart? Have you ever wondered whether this is a … Continue reading My heart hurts

It took 10 years to forgive myself

Forgiveness. Such an easy word to say but so hard to do. Especially if the recipient is not deserving of it. I wasted 10 years of my life holding on to things that 1) was not worth it; 2) stunted my mental development; 3) literally paused my life. I take 100% of the blame for … Continue reading It took 10 years to forgive myself

Much needed therapy

Three weeks ago, I made the mistake of cancelling a therapy appointment. At the time, I had good intentions. But now I realize I should have scheduled another appointment sooner. The old cliché ... you never realize a good thing until it's gone ... kinda sums up where I am right now. 30 years ago, … Continue reading Much needed therapy

I want more

Have you ever been in a bind where you want to do 'something' but you don't know what that something is? You have dozens of ideas ... but that BUT always get in the way. ... but do I have enough money to start? ... but will I be good at it? ... but can … Continue reading I want more