Have you ever been told that you care too much? Is it even possible? I mean to truly 'care' beyond expectations? Well, according to my counselor - the answer is yes. The way I am set up (by God), my compassion and empathy can lead me into my own downward spiral. In all honesty, if … Continue reading Can you care too much?
Two weeks ago, you may or may not have seen, I was in a very bad place. Today, I believe it is much worse. I am getting all of the support I can possibly get - counseling, medication, love - but to no avail. Depression is weighing heavily with no ending in sight. My motivation … Continue reading Wet eyes
I just want to give up. 🥺
My heart hurts. It literally feels like all four of my puppy's feet are standing on my chest. And Rico is a solid 20 lbs. I am thankful, however, that the pain is not from COVID. Have you every heard of a person having a broken heart? Have you ever wondered whether this is a … Continue reading My heart hurts
Forgiveness. Such an easy word to say but so hard to do. Especially if the recipient is not deserving of it. I wasted 10 years of my life holding on to things that 1) was not worth it; 2) stunted my mental development; 3) literally paused my life. I take 100% of the blame for … Continue reading It took 10 years to forgive myself
Three weeks ago, I made the mistake of cancelling a therapy appointment. At the time, I had good intentions. But now I realize I should have scheduled another appointment sooner. The old cliché ... you never realize a good thing until it's gone ... kinda sums up where I am right now. 30 years ago, … Continue reading Much needed therapy
Have you ever been in a bind where you want to do 'something' but you don't know what that something is? You have dozens of ideas ... but that BUT always get in the way. ... but do I have enough money to start? ... but will I be good at it? ... but can … Continue reading I want more
I am sitting on the back porch with Rico (my pug) praying this citronella candle works to repel mosquitoes. My paranoia makes me wonder who that mosquito could have bitten before me? 😳 Or is it just me? As the sounds of crickets echoes, Rico is perched in the corner of the porch, as if … Continue reading Such peace
It's been a while since I have written anything. My days and nights have been filled with sorrow and fear. Anger and anxiety. Hopelessness and anguish. And on top of all of that, I am mad as hell! Some of the most vile and poisonous venom with words come from the person who sit in … Continue reading Mad as hell!
Emotions. Everyone experiences them. It's a way of life. It is a simple way of expressing your present feelings about whatever is going on with your body physically or whatever is going on in your environment. Either way, some emotions can be hard to deal with and some can be joyfully overwhelming. For instance, I … Continue reading Feel without physically touching