I feel like I am struggling to breathe. Suffocating. Stifling. Exhausting. No relief in sight. 😓 I'm tired.

Survivor’s Remorse

I caught covid after an anniversary cruise last month. After I beat the odds by having mild symptoms, I felt bad in a sense. Let me explain. In 2020, when you heard of covid, you automatically thought 'death sentence'. Or at least I did. So many people passed away from this horrible virus. No cure … Continue reading Survivor’s Remorse

A message in the mess and a testimony in the test

Mother's Day 2023, a day I shall never forget. 3 long years after the Pandemic of 2020, days-weeks-months-years of wearing masks and staying away from crowded areas, anxiety-filled days where fear would set in because of the 'not knowing', staying home confined to the 4 walls day in and day out, the gruesome thoughts of … Continue reading A message in the mess and a testimony in the test

Mend each piece one by one

It amazes me sometimes how just one person can destroy one's self-image, self-esteem, self-worth … all with words and/or actions. It makes me question myself ... am I truly worth it? Seriously. Am I really? I am not as strong as people perceive me to be. I have to be pretty vulnerable and transparent to … Continue reading Mend each piece one by one

I can’t do anything with dead flowers

You know the old cliché "give me my flowers while I'm alive"? You normally hear this after someone has passed away unexpectedly. A person may feel like they didn't do enough or say enough when that person was alive. How many of you believe in that saying? I do. However, flowers (in a literal sense) … Continue reading I can’t do anything with dead flowers

When I think things over

Over the years, I've had more nos than yeses. I've had more disappointments than satisfactions. I've had more frienemies than friends. I've had my feelings hurt, been laughed at, been lied on ... well who hasn't? Can anyone name one person who's had a perfect life? I've had some good days. I've had some hills … Continue reading When I think things over

God sits high and looks low

God loves me! I used to question Him when I was much younger. "Why don't you love me?" "Why did You allow those bad things to always happen to me?" "What did I do to make 'people' dislike me so much?" "Why was I even born?" Alot of questions that I could never get the … Continue reading God sits high and looks low

Love is love

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always … Continue reading Love is love

Dark clouds still come

I have completed my 2nd week of school. It was definitely an eye-opening experience. The hustle and bustle of checking each class, each day - several times a day - to make sure I didn't overlook an assignment was stressful. But this is what I signed up for. After two introduction posts, two quizzes, and … Continue reading Dark clouds still come

Why not go back?

I can't believe I am starting college again on Monday. I received my Associates in Criminal Justice back in 2016 when I was 47 years old. And to be quite honest, I'm very content with just that. So why would I go back to college at this stage of my life? There are a few … Continue reading Why not go back?