Will I ever recover?

If only I had a simple life growing up. No disappointments. No drama. No hate. No depression. No expectations. Just happy without a rhythm or a reason. But then again, if my life was perfect, what would I be able to look forward to? A few months ago, I was hit with a diagnosis that … Continue reading Will I ever recover?

Seasonal Depression is real

The holiday seasons are upon us. It is a time for joyous celebrations with loved ones near and far. Delicious dinners, pleasant conversations, houses filled with laughing and reminiscing. But not everyone can rejoice in this happiness. Seasonal Depression is a real thing. So many people have lost loved ones, so the holidays are not … Continue reading Seasonal Depression is real

51 Days … and counting

51 days ... and counting. That's how long I have been depressed. I'm smiling sometimes. I'm functioning. I'm laughing at jokes. I am responding to social media. I'm still depressed. 51 days of seeing 3, 4, 5, 6, 7:00 am and sleeping until noon. Wasting away beautiful mornings that I will never, ever get back. … Continue reading 51 Days … and counting

Survivor’s Remorse

I caught covid after an anniversary cruise last month. After I beat the odds by having mild symptoms, I felt bad in a sense. Let me explain. In 2020, when you heard of covid, you automatically thought 'death sentence'. Or at least I did. So many people passed away from this horrible virus. No cure … Continue reading Survivor’s Remorse

A message in the mess and a testimony in the test

Mother's Day 2023, a day I shall never forget. 3 long years after the Pandemic of 2020, days-weeks-months-years of wearing masks and staying away from crowded areas, anxiety-filled days where fear would set in because of the 'not knowing', staying home confined to the 4 walls day in and day out, the gruesome thoughts of … Continue reading A message in the mess and a testimony in the test

Mend each piece one by one

It amazes me sometimes how just one person can destroy one's self-image, self-esteem, self-worth … all with words and/or actions. It makes me question myself ... am I truly worth it? Seriously. Am I really? I am not as strong as people perceive me to be. I have to be pretty vulnerable and transparent to … Continue reading Mend each piece one by one

I can’t do anything with dead flowers

You know the old cliché "give me my flowers while I'm alive"? You normally hear this after someone has passed away unexpectedly. A person may feel like they didn't do enough or say enough when that person was alive. How many of you believe in that saying? I do. However, flowers (in a literal sense) … Continue reading I can’t do anything with dead flowers

When I think things over

Over the years, I've had more nos than yeses. I've had more disappointments than satisfactions. I've had more frienemies than friends. I've had my feelings hurt, been laughed at, been lied on ... well who hasn't? Can anyone name one person who's had a perfect life? I've had some good days. I've had some hills … Continue reading When I think things over