My husband and son spent Saturday morning/afternoon cleaning out the garage. I couldn't help lift anything because of my back pain. However, I wanted to put my man-child's things in a sturdier storage bin. They were still stored in a box that I moved from South Carolina almost 6 years ago. I opened the box … Continue reading Lord, I miss us
Life begins when you take your first breath after being born. But when do you actually start "living"? Everyone is different. Some people start while in high school/college. Some choose to wait until they are married with children. Some wait until the children are out of the house. And then there are those who wait … Continue reading Don’t exist. Start living!
Twice this week, I have been asked by two different people why haven't I been talking/communicating? The thought never crossed my mind that I wasn't. But in reality, unbeknown to me, I was. Not on purpose. Or maybe it was. (????) I've had alot on my mind. But if you ask me to write everything … Continue reading Speechless
As I was getting ready for bed, my mind ran across an old cliché - time heals all wounds. I can attest that for some instances, yes, it does. But not all. Some wounds are too deep to heal. I feel like I am there sometimes. It's like, how can I truly get over it … Continue reading Carrying around dead weight
If only I had a simple life growing up. No disappointments. No drama. No hate. No depression. No expectations. Just happy without a rhythm or a reason. But then again, if my life was perfect, what would I be able to look forward to? A few months ago, I was hit with a diagnosis that … Continue reading Will I ever recover?
The holiday seasons are upon us. It is a time for joyous celebrations with loved ones near and far. Delicious dinners, pleasant conversations, houses filled with laughing and reminiscing. But not everyone can rejoice in this happiness. Seasonal Depression is a real thing. So many people have lost loved ones, so the holidays are not … Continue reading Seasonal Depression is real
Please see the video below about a friend dealing with depression. Hear how he opened up about his emotions, thoughts, and cry for help dealing with his mental illness. https://youtu.be/6Fni2z6ueJA?si=v3X7fsSHeTxGB0zp
Mother's Day 2023, a day I shall never forget. 3 long years after the Pandemic of 2020, days-weeks-months-years of wearing masks and staying away from crowded areas, anxiety-filled days where fear would set in because of the 'not knowing', staying home confined to the 4 walls day in and day out, the gruesome thoughts of … Continue reading A message in the mess and a testimony in the test
It amazes me sometimes how just one person can destroy one's self-image, self-esteem, self-worth … all with words and/or actions. It makes me question myself ... am I truly worth it? Seriously. Am I really? I am not as strong as people perceive me to be. I have to be pretty vulnerable and transparent to … Continue reading Mend each piece one by one
You know the old cliché "give me my flowers while I'm alive"? You normally hear this after someone has passed away unexpectedly. A person may feel like they didn't do enough or say enough when that person was alive. How many of you believe in that saying? I do. However, flowers (in a literal sense) … Continue reading I can’t do anything with dead flowers